Clouds and Stars

I want to go for a walk. I want someone to give me a hug. I want to go get coffee with Leslie. I want to spill my heart across a canvas so everyone can see me for who I am and not try to clean up my mess. I want to swing on a swing set and fall back so I can feel like I'm flying. Because if I could fly I could find freedom. And if I could soar among the trees and the clouds and be weightless for even an instant then I could find peace. Maybe peace and freedom are hiding in the clouds and the stars. And if I can just get to the stars, and swallow them whole. Grab each one and swallow it into the pit of my belly, then maybe I won't feel so empty.

I'd take the clouds in my hands and cover my body with their soft whiteness, and I'd never hurt again. I couldn't hurt myself and no one could hurt me. Because they wouldn't be able to get past the clouds.

If I could just find my wings and fly up to the clouds and the stars. Everything would be okay. I know they are here somewhere. I know they are here somewhere. I just misplaced them some how. And as soon as I find them life will be okay. I just need to keep searching. Not for peace and freedom. But for a set of wings. Does anyone have some I can borrow? Maybe just for a day or so. I'll return them unbroken, I swear! Please! Anyone? Excuse me sir, I see you have a spare? Would you mind lending them to a broken girl? Perhaps for the afternoon? I fear I don't have much time left. And I think if I could just get a little taste of peace and freedom then maybe I would be okay a little while longer. Please sir, just for an hour?

This is an emergency! I must find the clouds and the stars soon! Hurry, before it's too late!

Swallow those stars, little girl. They are jagged going down and they may hurt a little at first. But get them down in your belly if you want to live. It's quite necessary that you do it quickly and do it now. If there is any chance of making it out, it must be done now.

Grab the clouds quickly. Before they float away from you! Wrap them tight around you. Every part. Arms and legs. Around you shoulders like a cape, to help you be brave. Over your chest so your heart doesn't beat away. Cover up your belly, where the stars are still glowing. Don't be afraid of the moons soft light, let it show you the way. Guide you through the dark nights sky. Swallow another star if your courage grows dim. There are millions of stars in our sky, small girl, don't be afraid to take too many.

Keep on flying, keep on soaring, this is the way to peace and freedom. You must keep going. Time is running short, girl.