this is harder than i thought.

i can't tell if the world is spinning around me, or if everything has just stopped. and is simply waiting for me to respond. whatever it's doing, i'm gonna need someone/thing to get me through this. i can't do it alone.

i'm fat.

fatfatfat.

i had to buy new pants. none of my clothes fit me. all of my bones have disappeared under layers of fat.

i feel ugly. i feel ugly and i want to hide in my room and cry.

and i want to stop eating.