ever wanted to hit rewind? slurp the words back into your mouth, or the thought back into your brain before anyone can realize what you said or thought?

talk to my mom today. they're getting evicted, most likely. faith is getting a marriage certificate.

and i walked to my car after deciding not to buy groceries, and said outloud to no one in particular:

'maybe he'll care if i shrink'.

if i'm small.

if i don't eat.

if i lose some weight.

stop. stop. stop.